Spring Formal

Okay.... after the snow melts its not only Spring that comes but the oh so dreaded, by people who dont have dates, SPRING FORMAL... but... luckily for me.... i DO have a date... im so happy and im helping my friends find dates... so... im also being nice ;). be jealous... ummmm... outside of my school we have a HUGE patch of just ice covering the WHOLE yard and people were slipping and sliding (and falling) everywhere... My friend fell and almost pulled me down with her but, the solid rock that i am, stayed standing.... but then i took 2 steps and i fell.... haha... fail <3.....

My Mom

Its 8:40 something and my mom was supposed to be home at 6:30 something and its sleety and icy and disgusting so im really worried so i dont know what to do. And, im afriad something horrible has happened. She was supposed to be home 2 hours ago and im afraid she got into a car accident. She almost got into a accident the other day and im crying. I dont kn ow what to do....

Sick and tired of zits

uggggg.... i hate those ZITS.  Theyre horrible! i dont know anything to get rid of it. Ive tried everything! Theyre ugly and disgusting. Maybe i'll be a ugly zit face forever! i hope not! Well on the bright side alot of them are going away. Maybe i'm doing something right now. Cross your fingers and hope for the best for me. I just want to cry.I hate everything about me. Theres nothing good about me! Srsly. HAHA. That reminds me of a part from the manga Junjo Romantica (dont look it up its inapropriate. VERY inapropriate.) so dont. haha. gnight everyone!

Now for the depressing stuff.

In my first blog i mentioned that i was very low on self confidence and that is VERY true. I have the lowest self confidence of anyone you have ever talked to. Trust me on that. I personally belive i am stupid and worthless and there is no reason why i am alive. I am not worth what all my friends think i am worth. i feel stupid and all the jerks at school just make me feel like all that i think is correct. A few of my friends think i am suicidal but im ttly not and i just am always so sad all the time but im not a cutter or a emo. Im just me and no one seems to except me for just that. So i just dont understand what their problems are. Gosh. I guess im just a little weirdo that just doesnt have a place in this world. Im like at the bottom of the food chain but i almost feel kinda happy that im there so i dont have to lie to myself but still... why am i always so sad? I guess ill never figure it out. :(

First day of the blogging

Okay. This is my first blog so go easy on me. Im a teenager and this blog is to express the difficulty and doubt and love and happiness of being a teenager. I have very low self confidence and im in a quite difficult position in mt life right now. I life in a little area in a worn down town and i need to find a job to save up for college. So im like every other teenager. I hope that you will follow me and live my life as i live it. i hope we can learn alout about each other and we can be great friends.