Now for the depressing stuff.

In my first blog i mentioned that i was very low on self confidence and that is VERY true. I have the lowest self confidence of anyone you have ever talked to. Trust me on that. I personally belive i am stupid and worthless and there is no reason why i am alive. I am not worth what all my friends think i am worth. i feel stupid and all the jerks at school just make me feel like all that i think is correct. A few of my friends think i am suicidal but im ttly not and i just am always so sad all the time but im not a cutter or a emo. Im just me and no one seems to except me for just that. So i just dont understand what their problems are. Gosh. I guess im just a little weirdo that just doesnt have a place in this world. Im like at the bottom of the food chain but i almost feel kinda happy that im there so i dont have to lie to myself but still... why am i always so sad? I guess ill never figure it out. :(